Saturday, 16th July, 2005 08:29:47am
Name or Alias:
Training and/or processing level:
Dianetic Clear, Dianetic Auditor, Flag Tech TRs
Org or location:
Midwest US, Pacific NW US, LA, Flag Land Base
Time involved in the Church of Scientology:
Recommended Website - Operation Clambake
- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- I met someone who was involved and took me to a lecture.
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- I liked the scientific approach and the people seemed to be friendly and high energy. I started at a mission rather than an org.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- shyness, low self worth, generating more income.
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- All of the above; people being forced to disconnect from family and friends, poor living conditions, I was asked to do 'espionage' by the GO. I wondered where all the money went when the orgs couldn't pay their rent. I set aside my feelings because I was brainwashed.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- I had major gain on most of what I did in Scientology. It wasn't all that much, TRs, objectives, dianetic auditing and training. I assumed that more Scientology training and auditing would give me more gain. Now in retrospect, it appears that I am fortunate that I never did the OT levels.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- both, public for 10 years, outer org staff for about 2 years, SO for a few months in LA. I was HCO qualled and always posted there.
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- Events subsequent to the upheaval in 82. I was seeing and hearing things as an HCO staff member that were severely straining even my brainwashed credibility. I was ordered to Ethics in LA by an SO mission and decided that standard tech and ethics was dead, and maybe LRH too. I blew, never went to LA, and was declared.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- I think it needs to change all of its practices. I had good karma with Scientology - I was never grossly mistreated, not even as staff/SO, but have seen it happen to many others. The whole system behind the tech is grossly suppressive and calculated to completely disempower people. I was brainwashed, had to take a couple of years to unbrainwash myself, realize that I was not doomed to non-existence because I had left the Bridge, but I survived and thrived.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- No. I no longer need organizations of any type to tell me what my truth is and I have found my own 'Bridge to Total Freedom'. All it cost me was the price of a few books (not LRH's)and 'really duplicating' what I read.
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
- LRH had some of the truth. He didn't have it all, but whether by accident, research or other means, he had a few key pieces to the puzzle. After all is said and done, I won't denigrate him entirely because now I know that he had some truth, and some of it worked powerfully. The Church of Scientology has become an all-devouring monster, though. As it always is with karma, its executives will pay its due. There are two really important things that LRH wrote (but evidently didn't practice):
1) If it isn't true for you it isn't true
2) The key to a happy life is to be willing to experience anything
If people would absolutely understand and apply those two statements, they could produce their own higher states of consciousness...for free.