Scientology - Through the Door

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Monday, 24th January, 2005 07:57:06am

Name or Alias: Horst Blaupunkt
Training and/or processing level: OTVII, Class II Auditor, Evaluator (fully trained)
Org or location: Southwest Pacific
Time involved in the Church of Scientology: 25 years
Recommended Website - Clambake
1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of Scientology?
Went to work for a company owned by a scientologist family.

2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
Security of tenure at the company where I worked, which was owned by that scientologist family.

3. Were there problems in your life that you thought scientology would address?
I was new in the country, no qualifications worth anything, no work experience worth anything - I needed that job to put a roof over our heads and food on our table.

4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
Just about everything I saw, experienced or heard about in scientology was a weird mix of the ridiculous, the pathetic and the self-contradictory. At first, the reason I set aside my feelings was because pretending to be keen on scientology got me lots of promotions and pay rises at work, and later on because out of sheer curiousity, I decided to see for myself what the state of OT was all about.

5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of Scientology?
To get to OT, which I got curious about and regarded as an investment in a kind of turbo-charged self improvement program, an investment that I was hoping would, in the end, yield some handsome returns. That was of course an extremely stoopid and naive thing to believe, particularly in light of the fact that I could never bring myself to believe that scientology was a religion, and also in light of the very well-founded jaundiced opinion I had - from almost the very outset of my 'career' in scientology - of the scientology staff that kept selling me the pups I kept buying to get to OT. In the end, instead of producing any kind of return, the exercise simply cost me hundreds of thousands of dollars and an enormous amount of wasted time and effort. A bad misinvestment, if there was ever one, over several decades.

6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
Public at local org, then at AO, then at Flag. Never volunteered. After moving on from the scientologist-owned company that introduced me to the cult in the first place, I continued 'moving up' the bridge to nowhere out of sheer curiousity, and that process required that I 'help out' from time to time, in order to get in the good books of the thought police and be permitted to take the next step 'up' on that bridge to nowhere.

7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a "final straw"?
GAT. After almost 1000 well done hours on OTVII, it was clear to me that the level was a con and the state of OT was a con - exactly as the state of clear was a con in the lower grades. The so-called end phenomenon of the state of clear is that I realise that I am mocking up (creating) my own reactive bank. After going around in circles on OTVII for four long years, with incredibly costly trips to Flag every six months to get re-brainwashed and security checked, I knew that the end phenomenon of OTVII was going to be something equally senseless, such as the realisation that I am mocking up my own body thetans (BTs) - the purpose of OTVII being to get rid of them - just as the purpose of the state of clear was to get rid of the reactive bank. And this is the essence of the con in scientology, namely that so-called auditing is designed to lead you to the realisation that what you are auditing actually does not really exist - even though you are force-fed to accept its existence as fact, during your 'studies' prior to getting audited. In other words, the whole thing is just a product of your imagination that is being used by you to excuse your own shortcomings - so snap out of it and get yourself a life! And this is the 'huge', arcane, inner secret of scientology OT! Talk about the emperor having no clothes! And to get to such inane realisations, which in fact is the entire purpose of the scientology bridge to nowhere, I spent an inordinate amount of my time and treasure for over twenty five years - just out of simple, stoopid curiousity. But I can't blame anyone else but myself - not the scientology sales types, not the scientology shills, not the scientology thought police, not the zombies who staff the orgs - any more than I could blame a used car salesman for selling me a lemon that I should have known was a lemon. It was all my doing, my stupidity, my curiousity. And then, when GAT came along, instead of an abject apology for selling me a crook product all those years, what I got was an aggressive harangue to fork over another fortune for a GAT-style redo of all my previous training courses that led up to OTVII. That was the last straw, at which point I cut my losses and quietly bailed out.

8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those practices affect your life?
The church of scientology is essentially a bait and switch con writ large. Changing it won't help none, because it is rotten to the core, rotten at its core, rotten around its core and rotten through and through. Fraudulent in every respect. How did it effect me? It cost me hundreds of thousands of dollars and an inordinate amount of time and effort for absolutely nothing - zero, zilch, nada - in return. Serves me right, too, for having been this stoopid for that long.

9. If the items you listed in the previous question were changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of Scientology? If so, why?
Wouldn't touch scientology with a forty foot pole - ever again.

10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
Thank the Lawd I had the good sense to cut my losses - not before time! - and quietly bail out.

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