Friday, 29th March, 2002 02:42:51am
Name or Alias:
Birgitta (Bid) Harrington
Training and/or processing level:
Class V auditor, OT VII
Org or location:
Time involved in the Church of Scientology:
Recommended Website - Operation Clambake
- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- I had never heard about CofS when I one day in the fall of 1970 was offered to do a personality test.
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- The people in the org were so friendly and seemed so certain about everything. I wanted to be part of a group who said that it was possible to change the world to a better place by changing people to take more responsibility. When doing the comm.course I got this big 'realization' that if my life got to be changed I had to do it all by myself. I was also very appealed about that Scientology was 'a science' - I didn't have 'to believe' in anything.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- I thought that I through Scientology could get the answers to the bigger questions about life. I had a rather difficult grow up where I always felt that I had to take responsibility for my alcoholic parents, and yet my dad beat me up if I didn't obey to all their rules. I was used to obey and I had a lack in self confidence. I was married to a very authoritarian man who always told me how silly I was and that I was too stupid to learn anything. I wanted to study maths and psychology and I had passed the tests for university education but he forbid me. So when he then went to the police with my Scientology books it became the final of this marriage since I had the group backing me up about how 'suppressive' he was. Simply, I got an order to disconnect or handle or stay out of the org.
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- Big money, regging and bodyrouting was a conflict for me all those years. Especially when this 'raw meat' or 'wogs' were good enought to reg for money. Actually there were so much that was wrong that is covered in other peoples stories and also in my own story at: http://hem.netlink.se/~sfp4645/
I found that it was like trying to fight my head on a wall in trying to change all the wrongs. I tried to hold it down by thinking 'I will understand this better when I am higher up on the Bridge'.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- I had my only friends there, and I couldn't speak about the Scientology world to anyone outside.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- I was public but volonteered for the GO from 1976. I joined staff at the Malmoe org in late 1979. First as an auditor but I was recruited/ordered to the GO when the org was raided by the police in 1980. I became the first OSA in the world after the Denmark DPF in 1983.
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- After the DPF, I started to think 'what would the world look like with people like this controlling it'. The thought scared me and I started to look closer at other things that I had previously ignored. I started to look at contradictions in Hubbards writings but the final straw was when I found that my husband had got a full programme on how to divorce me without causing a PR flap for the org. As he followed the steps - I left him and Scientology.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- I can't see that it would help to change some practices. Scientology is a con and it deals with mindcontrol.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- I would never rejoin any form of Scientology.
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
- I wish the Internet had been available in 1984 when I finally left. It was very lonesome to be out there at the time. I was Fair Game on my own. ARS and IRC are doing a lot for people.