Thursday, 31st May, 2012 01:36:46pm
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- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- My partner at the time was a scientologist and bought me a copy of DMSMH after I asked questions about the Church. I then went into Org to a few events and signed up for Dianetics course.
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- I was interested as my partner seemed to attribute a lot of positive things in his life to it. I didn't know him that well at the time and he seemed a really genuinely good person and from the little I read and discussed with him, there seemed to be a lot of truths in the material.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- I was recovering from quite a traumatic previous relationship and trying to rebuild confidence and be successful at work and be more positive about the future. I now realise I was incredibly vulnerable and desperately wanting to be loved and to belong and almost to reinvent myself.
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- Even while I was doing the course, little things niggled at me.I was constantly told if I questioned anything or wrote anything that showed some modicum of individual expression that I was to 'just write what it says in the book'. I felt happy when I got full marks and my partner was supportive and pleased with me. When I went to events everyone on the surface appeared jolly and positive. But there was always a slight feeling of unease- they applauded each other for donating large sums of money- the loudest applause was for the largest donation. They applauded a portrait of LRH and I wanted to laugh because it was like watching some extremist group that I would normally never have eany involvement with. Often when I walked past the ORG buiding I would see those same staff members out on the street tugging on cigarettes and looking tired and utterly miserable.They were a pretty poor advertisement for whatever they were selling inside. I was pressured to do more courses with constant calls, home visits and letters and this made me increasingly wary and I started asking questions which were 'not appropriate' and deemed as attacks.I then realised that the organisation did not stand for free speech and individualism but was actually censorious and suppressive. It caused many arguments between myself and my partner and of course he chose the Church over me, even though I am sure that he loved me and I cared deeply about him. I believe he invested a great deal of money in the Church and that he will never leave. It is not my place to persuade him to do so though I as an outsider can see that he has been lied to and coerced. I believe he joined at a very young age when he was vunerable, lonely and needed to belong. My biggest fear is that when he is no longer useful or when he finally realises the truth, it will be too late and he will be old and alone. All that I have researched on various sites and all the accounts I have read about the way this organisation treats its members and their families is saddening. At first I was skeptical about the criticism but my own experiences have all gradually affirmed that the accounts of how people are recruited and kept in the Church are true and that it is exploitative of those who join because they want to do good.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- I didn't. I always remained an interested spectator on the sidelines and gathered enough evidence to convince me I was right to cease my involvement.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- I never regarded myself as having joined but my real wake-up call was when I found out that Knowledge Reports existed and that my then partner had been subject to them. It made me see him and the Church in a new and unacceptable light. I thought he was a free thinking individual but the opposite was actually true and it was very sad to realise it.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
- Always ask questions when someone tries to get you to part with money in exchange for a belief system. In fact, always ASK QUESTIONS. Any religion or organisation that cannot withstand intelligent questioning should be treated with at least a degree of caution.The pursuit of knowledge requires that we ask questions.