Friday, 28th June, 2002 00:46:29am
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- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- Books from friends
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- It seemed magical, as if there were answers in the upper levels that could make me powerful, or at least in control of my own self. It seemed scientific and logical. The basics were simple and made perfect sense to me at the time.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- Yes! I had a rough go at things just before. A death, a break-up and a lot of social problems. I was very shy and had bad control of my emotions. I had no family of my own and was depressed.
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- Plenty. Some were the gross, hard-selling tactics of regs. Working their staff members long hours. Children who worked even harder and never saw their parents but once a week for an hour (if their parents were 'upstat'). Gross living conditions. OTs that cheat on their wives, changed the tech to suit their needs, unspiritual greediness or patronized others. Shunning of all 'PTS' people. racist, sexist, whitey views about the world. Friends who documented your conversations and spied on you for the sake of 'ethics'. It is a sick and paranoid life. Yes, also lots of dissconnections from families because they disagreed with Scn. Nothing convinced me to set aside any feelings about these things. I way always upset by them.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- fear. And 'friends' and the idea that Hubbard had it right. I just thought that everyone else was messed up. I continued to look past it and put all my trust in what I read and followed the rules despite everyone else around me acting crazy. I still believed Ron.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- I was staff and public, but mostly public. Not SO.
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- Many straws over time. The constant re-writing of the tech to get people to pay again and again for the same courses. Always adding additions to EPs on spiritual attainments. All of the PTS/SP data never worked for anyone I knew, but blamed the PC, not the 'tech' for this. I found this cruel. Also SO regs stole money and no one seemed to think that was as bad as a kid who lied or who still wanted to talk to his non-Scn father, or a person late for course. That seemed more punishable. The courses and processing became unfathomable to ever afford. But the final straw was finally getting a computer and reading about all the things we shouldn't read because they were 'entheta' (which it sure was), but it was also the truth. It was a real slap in the face to read about what a psychopath Ron really was. That has been the most devistating.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- Some? They need to change their entire business. They should sell cars or furniture or George Forman Grills and take the idea of spiritualism, or answers of any sort, out of the picture entirely since they have no answers.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- I will never again believe any group that says they have answers or that believe in wild fairy tales. Life is outside the confines of Scn and the members. They don't need to have bars. It is a prison and a trap and a lie. It has damaged me. So no, I would not go back. I go forward.
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?