Scientology - Through the Door

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Monday, 7th September, 2009 10:19:02am

Name or Alias: Maxim 'Mox' Zbitnoff
Training and/or processing level: Class 3 OT5
Org or location: St Hill, ASHO, AOLA, Cebrity Center, LA Org, CC Portland
Time involved in the Church of Scientology: 1968-1997
Recommended Website - www.moxbuilds.com
1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of Scientology?
I was living in San Francisco and a new acquaintance told me about scientology and because I was seeking 'higher truth' it sounded like it might help me find it..... OT powers and all.


2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
That it was a way to access more of yourself, that it was a technology that all you had to do was follow the steps, and that one could unlock the ability to speak to anyone on any subject... that alone sounded like the keys to the universe.


3. Were there problems in your life that you thought scientology would address?
I thought I would become a master of communication... something I felt much less than at the time. With that ability I thought I'd have no problem charming girls.... something I didn't feel very good at then.


4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
The staff.... if scientology was what it says then why were they struggling so much. How come all these 'releases' and 'clears' including myself didn't act like the glowing descriptions of the states. I figured that if we just persisted then eventually the magic' would turn on.


5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of Scientology?
I believed the line that it was the only hope in all the universe and so clung to it like a security blanket.


6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
Briefly I was on staff at ASHO as Qual I&I/Certs and Awards, AOLA as auditor, Mission of the Valley public division.


7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a "final straw"?
I read Russell Miller's BAre Faced Messiah and got a view of LRH that seemed more real. In fact I could relate better to that version than the bigger than life savior of the universe version because it was more human. But still it took a while to let go of the idea that I needed the tech..... that I couldn't just trust my own guidance.


8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those practices affect your life?
I would say no to that question. Not that I favor abuse in any way. The church is coming undone on its own though if some want to fix it I say have at it.


9. If the items you listed in the previous question were changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of Scientology? If so, why?
I believe the church served a purpose for a certain time and a certain public and now other ideas and 'technologies' are ascending that are more open and intuitive. I believe it a bit delusory to imagine that only one man in all of creation could figure IT out.


10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
Some of the biggest wins I had were leaving the church and realizing that there was no one, no technology that would 'save' me or deliver me to some elevated state other what I am. It was fun while it lasted.



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