Scientology - Through the Door

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Tuesday, 15th July, 2008 05:25:39am

Name or Alias: Jack
Training and/or processing level: Book One Auditor. Did some book one co-audit.
Org or location: Santa Rosa, San Francisco, LA
Time involved in the Church of Scientology: I was involved for about 2 years on and off in my late teens, and about a year in my early twenties.
Recommended Website - http://xenu.net
1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of Scientology?
Spirituality and it's many Paths has always interested me. In my mid teens I read a mention of Scientology in a library book on new religions in the USA written by George Malko and so I located a local mission in the phone book and contacted them.

2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
The people! They were bright, friendly and often enthusiastic. Also quite willing to take the time to talk with me. The ideas were intriguing also. I was already a reincarnationist and with a sort of mystically oriented rosicrusian/masonic family background was pretty comfortable with the idea of a progressive levels of illumination/initiation group.

3. Were there problems in your life that you thought scientology would address?
Not especially, though the ED did spend a fair amount of time trying to find my 'ruin'! Other than for my classic teenage tendency to make epic angsty drama of my quest for Enlightenment, I just didn't have any real problems.

4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
Odd little things. Overhearing one Scientologist remark that they 'love the tech but admin sucks'. The way Sea Org recruiters lie. Oh, there was the time I was on the EPF in the Sea Org and we were stripping asbestos off the old pipes at the Cedars complex. The stuff was just flying in the outdoor breezes and we were all breathing it in. (We were on the roof) I expressed concern and was told that there was nothing to worry about, if anyone became ill from it the church could 'audit it out'. I refused to continue working in that area. By some miracle I didn't land in the RPF for that.Stumbling across Ron's write up on how modern women should not nurse their babies as they couldn't produce sufficiently nourishing milk. The barley formula. Even I knew better than that and I knew that was just plain b.s.
There was also the way I saw young teens working in the sea org. Shouldn't they have been in school?
I never bought into the idea that Scientology was the one True Path. That led to many an interview with the Ethics officer and reading 'Keeping Scientology Working' a lot.
The high prices for the services also really bothered me. It seemed that if the Church really wanted to clear the planet, making Scientology much more economically accessible should be a big part of that.


5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of Scientology?
I think it was pure curiosity. I simply wanted to find out more.

6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
I did some volunteer work both in Santa Rosa and San Francisco. I never did sign a staff contract. I signed Sea Org contracts (Twice!) But never made it out of the Flag Readiness Unit (The first time) or the Estates Project Force (The second time) Each time I lasted about 3 weeks. I 'blew' the first time, and bulldozed my way through being routed out in one afternoon the second time.

7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a "final straw"?
I was experiencing a growing unease with the Church. There were so many things that just pointed to something fundimentally wrong. The pressure to write enthusiastec paens to a Scientology course right after completing it, before one even has a chance to see how it affects one's life. Why insist on it ? Were they afraid the person completing the course/process would quickly see there were no wins to write about once they came down off that course completion high? That patronizing view toward non-scientologists. The refusal to admit that Ron Hubbard was ever mistaken about anything.
I met a man who had worked with Ron personally in the early days of Dianetics. It was illuminating. He spoke about how Ron would come up with an idea, and then later that evening tell his audience at a talk he was giving that he had tested and researched that idea for years and found it to be true. Ron was apparently charming, brilliant, and a true bulls***er.
I think the final straw was when I got the details on the infamous Mission Holder's meeting in San Fransisco in 1982.


8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those practices affect your life?
Definitely! Disconnection, trying to control their members too much, the Ron is infallible doctrine. The unwillingness for the Church to take an honest look at what is and isn't working and admit it when they are wrong. The entire administrative structure needs to be redone. Demoting Miscavige to kitchen help would be a good start!
The big thing those items did was show me how far humans can go to delude themselves, and how many people can be harmed by it. In a way, the effect was a posative one. I think I'm more able to face truth about myself and my own life because I have seen what kind of hell self-deception can lead to. Truth is so much better, and self revelation isn't always painful. often it's a wonderful thing. So in a way, I learned compassion from those practices and the way I responded to them..


9. If the items you listed in the previous question were changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of Scientology? If so, why?
No. I would enjoy cheering them on, but I'm not a Scientologist, haven't been for a long time. I have my own Path and I am happy to travel it.

10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
I consider myself fortunate that I was never really harmed by the Church of Scientology. To be blunt, I was just never important enough to, or deeply involved enough in it to attract the kind of administrative attention that leads to some of the more horrendous stories other, more deeply committed people can tell.

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