Sunday, 15th June, 2008 02:55:31pm
Name or Alias:
Training and/or processing level:
Class 1 / OT7**
Org or location:
Time involved in the Church of Scientology:
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- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- A person I met told me about it.
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- That it promised a 'cure' for all maladies, mental and physical and powers beyond the normal.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- Yes, I was very insecure and failing in achieving my goals
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- There were many but the main one was my strong perception that Scientology and Ron were not as they were presented as being.
I felt an evilness about it, an attempt to disempower, to entrap and control beings.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- I had bought into the viewpoint I could not exist happily without it and was totally incapable of evolving by myself.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- I was away from Scientology for a few months taking my time to do a very thorough lifetime O/W writeup. When I next visited the Miami Org I was, for the first time ever, very exterior to the energies and the people there. I was in shock to see the fanaticism, the worship of Ron, the lack of warmth or theta, loss of individuality in the people there. I started seeing that the intent of Scientology was, not to make better souls, but to turn everyone into a Scientologist in order to gain power.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- Scientology first needs to recreate itself with noble goals and practices and management.
The rest is a long list.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
- **I did the OT Levels in the Freezone. OT3-7 felt very unreal and went against my very strong belief I was solely responsible for the presence of my negatives in my internal world and that any self improvement activity must be directed towards the owning up of whatever negative condition is found (that is not the case with OT3-7).
I ignored my own truths and OT7 ended up literally caving in my world and it took years of pretty bad suffering to begin to dig myself out of it on my own and realize that what had caused it was the disconnecting from my world and the creation of an artificial world that was required of me to do these levels.
Meditating, or being able to become still, allowed me and is allowing me to bring up or recognize, accept, embrace and dissolve or detach from all that I have discovered and am discovering that is unwanted or unnecessary in my world.
It is now June 2008 and for the first time in many many years I can say I am much more me, much more alive than I have ever been this lifetime.
I have just begun the process of restoring my life and everything in it to where I want it to be. I have become the best son a mother can have, the 2nd best friend a friend can have and the best friend I have ever had.
“Ultimately, each of us must develop within ourselves the capacity to make our way through the darkness without any companions, maps or guide.' [Osho]
I thank the OT levels for having influenced me to develop that ability in me.