Monday, 5th May, 2008 00:07:06am
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- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- I have now studied cooercive tactics used by cults, and know that Hubbard, Miscavage and Rinder, etc. have organised all the information very skilfully and decietfully to induce altered mental states such as subtle forms of hypnosis (rhymetic speach, repetative wording, etc.) and trance-like phonomea often referred to as 'floating' by experts on cults. All the while this was going on without me knowing (mind control is more subtle than forced brainwashing and often sinks deeped into the mind and it harder to break free from) I met some very nice people, who were in the trap themselves and were using their Scieno-persona in convincing me Scientology was such a good thing. They have beautiful resorts; they can afford this by ripping off so many people and ruining their lives. Actually, most of the things I found appealing turned out to be lies sugar-coated in the promise of heightened spirituality.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- I didn't have any major probems in my life at the time, but was told Scientology could help me in my career and in general as well. I was told that it teaches people how to be more successful and enjoy life to the fullest.
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- There was a point in the indoctrination process when I suddenly felt a deep numbness and seperation from my family and friends and peers outside of Scientology. It instinctively didn't feel right, but I was under the impression that what I was learning was more valuable than anything else and that once I reached the state of 'Clear' everything would make more sense. I didn't have a lot of money at the time and wanted the bulk of it to go to auditing, which I was under the impression would make me more capable of helping others. There was a large emphasis on heping others ... for the increase of Scientology's impact in the world. Someone close to me made a critical remark about Scientology and, although I never repored it to the cult, I felt disconnected from that person on an emotional level and was always in a state of ready-to-defend-Scientology or end the relationship when I was around the person, who I often tried to avoid. It's sad and shocking how Scientology can make people lose affection from those so close to them. It creates a disilusionary matrix better than all else so that the mind control cannot be easily penetrated.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- I was under mind control.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- I 'helped out.' -officialy. I don't want to give a lot of personal information at this time. I had concerns about rumors I had heard about the treatment of Sea Org members. I addressed my concern with some staff, believing the rumors had to be false, and was interestingly enough given some propeganda and material on the Sea Org and ended up almost joining.
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- In a way I believe my low financial status helped save me. I couldn't pay my way up the latter as fast as I was being indoctrinated, which led to some tramaic breakdowns. I remember one night when I was watching a movie and it was a very touching movie: the characters seemed to be feeling emotions I could no longer feel. I was stuck in the emotionless state of a fully indoctrinated Scientologist dreaming of Saint Hill vacations, and I felt a pull. I had a moment of wanting to feel again. I hadn't slept more than 10 hours in the past three or four days because of the 'volunteer'work and adrenaline rushes of how we were saving the planet. I was so wired and tired at the same time that I just snapped, as they call it, and all my earlier questions began racing through my minds. I went online and found out many horrifying, undescripably inhumain truths about Scienology.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- The Church of Scientology needs to end. All of it. For good. Hubbard created the church to control us and have us serve him as his willing slaves. All aspects of the cult have affected my life, on various personal levels. I will never be the same.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
- I am so grateful to all the people who have helped me stay sober of Scientology as I continue to recover. You know who you are; thank you for all the good work you do.
I will always speak the truth. The leaders of Scientology cannot erase the truth. They are going down!
No matter how badly any of us hurt inside, keep moving foward, stay alive, I'm not through the recovery process yet but I hear that those who have survived all the pain and loss have a brand new outlook on life and know best of all how to live life to the fullest. Good luck, see you there.