Scientology - Through the Door

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Thursday, 1st May, 2008 06:22:49pm

Name or Alias: Gtness
Training and/or processing level: Class 2 / OT7
Org or location: Florida
Time involved in the Church of Scientology: 19 yrs.
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1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of Scientology?
In Puerto Rico, the hair stylist that did my hair was a Scientologist

2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
That it stated it could handle any negative situation that could come up in life and make me really able

3. Were there problems in your life that you thought scientology would address?
I was very depressed about life from a spiritual sense then and very insecure.

4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
My first disagreement, although silly at the time (I now see it as a window into being able to examine Hubbard's real spiritual condition), was finding out that Ron smoked cigarettes which made me wonder how could an 'OT' be addicted to nicotine and/or putting poison into his body.

Then came the Financial Police era and the suppressive declares were I saw a lot of the staff and public at the Org be really fearful of being kicked out of Scientology. I, for the first time, realized that fear and heavy control had entered the world of Scientology.

Also Hymn of Asia entered into the picture by making me start seeing that Hubbard was a very insecure person seeking to be regarded in a Godly manner (the intent of the book was to make the reader realize he was Buddha and Buddha's prediction of a 'saviour'.

Then alongside came a bulletin called Jokers and Degraders which, to me, was a suppressive attempt to impose a control over conduct.

I started perceiving (even in my dreams) that Scientology was being run by people who had become suppressives.


5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of Scientology?
I NEEDED Scientology and allowed myself to be indoctrinated into strongly believing I could not possibly achieve my spiritual goals on my own.

I had bought into the idea that Scientology was the only means to get me to my goals.

As I said, I NEEDED Scientology and, as a result, was very attached to it.


6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
Public, although I audited paying pc's for a long while.

7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a "final straw"?
The suppression I could no longer deny.

But what made it happen was that I sat down one day and started confronting my own viewpoints regarding Scientology.

I decided I would not get in touch with any ex-scientologist or freezone group for support as I felt I needed to come up with my own viepoints and my own decisions.

It took me a couple of weeks until I realized that my integrity and my relationship with myself was MUCH, MUCH more important than my need for what Scientology promised me.


8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those practices affect your life?
It first needs to recognize and acknowledge its lies (Ron's life, his death, his character; the unachievable, by the Church, state of OT and Clear; its destructive and flawed technology; its real intent of producing, not free souls but fanatical trapped Scientologists. I could go on....

Scientology, to me, has very destructive and deceiving approaches that ultimately end up weakening and severely deteriorating one’s ability and strength to be fully autonomous without need of outside sources to be in control of one’s own life. Instead they slowly “disempower” one so that one ultimately hands over one’s own world to Hubbard and Scientology for them to be in command of it.

Most damaging to me is the OT Levels “Bridge” (or the making of Ron Hubbard’s own issues, own experiences, own imaginations and own viewpoints your own) in which you completely depend on him and his creations to tell you what you have to do next TO you and your world in order to “improve” it. And if it does not quite indicate or belong in your world you start mocking it up which is where a lot of damage is done.


9. If the items you listed in the previous question were changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of Scientology? If so, why?
There would be no Church left.....


10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
After Scientology: A group, with a new name, using what is good in Scientology and other sources of wisdom, with decent and honest conduct, with the intention of helping each person find, establish and pursue his own path, HIS OWN BRIDGE to growing and expanding and becoming fully independent. NO establishment of a group identity (no 'ologistism') permitted to limit the freedom to assume any viewpoint. No guru to be worshipped and blindly followed.

And at graduation, of any course, we all applaud and hip, hip, hooray OURSELVES......


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