Tuesday, 4th March, 2008 01:22:22pm
Name or Alias:
Me, myself, & I
Training and/or processing level:
Class IV Auditor, OT III, Interned supervisor, + lots of admin courses
Org or location:
Time involved in the Church of Scientology:
Recommended Website - This one, clambake, and xenutv
- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- Friend in high school told me about it and then gave me the book Scientology, New Slant on Life
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- I was into spiritual growth, nirvana, that sort of thing. Scientology seems to fit the bill, especially with OT 7 (at that time) being Serenity of Beingness.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- No, mostly wanted the higher awareness and serenity.
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- Lots of things. Staff members were very, very antagonistic to non-Scientologists (ie: WOGs). Nobody ever had any money and nothing existed other than the importance of Scientology - staff basically did not have a life. Many OTs seems less aware and less able, and less happy than me, and could be very antagonistic to others.
When you first enter Scn the big thing is if it is not true for you, it is not true. That you should have an open mind and let the application of the tech prove to you that it works. After being in for awhile, you learn that you cannot have an open mind, can NEVER question the validity of any aspect of the tech. If you did, you were handled with sec checking, word clearing. You HAD to be convinced that it worked completely, all the time, with not doubts at all. You learn to tow the line, and suppress any doubts you have.
An example is the purification rundown. Totally unfounded and totally worthless. There is never any published test results for anything. It is just what Ron says, and no questioning it. Being a biologist by trade before Scientology and now, I was very excited to see Ron's scientific writeup on what he discovered in researching the purif. None came. From my scientific training, I knew all along that the purif was B.S. but of course by that time I knew to bury those doubts deep down, like all Scientologists do. Of course, it is from Ron, and he is the source of all workable spiritual knowledge, so it must be true.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- Early stuff resulted in nice wins. Some of the low level auditing did seem to increase awareness. The TR (communication training routines) did improve my communication.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- Public 3 1/2 years, mission staff 5 years, public for the final 6 years.
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- After not being around Scientology or Scientologists for a number of years, I realized what a trap it truly is. It totally squelches free thought, free speech, and freedom to live a fun adventurous life. Mission staff was not as bad as what I've read about org staff and sea org, but still, it allowed for nothing outside of working. Now I can go camping, do a road trip on my Harley, and am able to afford to go to a good restaurant or movie when I want. Life is good. I do what I want, when I want. I am an ethical being who is kind to and helps other beings. I volunteer with a group that helps developmenally disabled adults. I could not be the person I am now as a Scientologist, and definitely not as a staff member.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- I think it is basically a trap. You can get some wins, but hey, there are lots of places you can get wins. I would never consider returning.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- No. Having done clear and OT III, I can say with certainty that Scientology does not create what is decribed as clear and OT. These states may exist somewhere, but not within this organization.
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
- No. Thanks for providing this sounding board.