Monday, 20th August, 2007 10:11:47am

Name or Alias: Jennifer
Training and/or processing level: Mixed bag
Org or location: South Africa
Time involved in the Church of Scientology: 48 years
Recommended Website - Durban, JHB, Pretoria & the then Rhodesia

1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of Scientology?

PE Course then Personality & IQ Tests.

2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?

The tone scale & the co -auditing including the TR's
The appearance in the photos of LRH and seeing him on screen at a congress being a humorous person who seemed to have all the answers about the mind. I was 17 at the time

3. Were there problems in your life that you thought scientology would address?

Teenage depression

4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?

No everything seemed like the answers to life as no disconnections had yet become a reality. Only in 1965 I began to feel the paranoia in orgs when the required stats had become a need to find SP's. I felt very uneasy as I felt that I might be suspected as an SP because of the paranoia about such type persons.I have never been declared an SP & neither did I ever declare anyone as such when working as an ED in Orgs because within me I did not really buy into such over exageration of enemies. I used Scientogy by how it worked for me & was never a zealot.

5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of Scientology?

Because I believed that Ron had all the answers. I bought into his lifetime track as sold & presented to us. I saw only the presented side of the coin the good picture & was never exposed to the opposite side of the coin that was not presented to us.

6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?

Staff & later became a Sea Org member sent on missions to Orgs.
I am a non conformist by nature & got away with this during my times in Scientology. I believe I can con maybe in a manner like Hubbard but not as horrendous in nature as I have only recently got to learn about the man. I was a dropuot and did many things in my life that are true and not lies like having joined the army, hitch hiked all over the place having done a bit of time in the merchant navy. I don't exagerate the importance of myself as did Hubbard.

7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a "final straw"?

Yes I was an ED sent on mission by the Sea Org to an Org. They just left me at the Org. I am rebelious by nature & if anyone screams at me I scream back and don't take shit despite the exagerated need to save the world through Scientology. Reading how those little commodore midgets screamed abuse at older people I would have smacked them & their commodore. This made me very annoyed reading of such presumption of divine right to rule abuses. I really thought Scientology was of democratic principles. I hate bullies & thugs & would kill them if they tried such shit with me. I did not realize the abuses that occur within the hierarchy of Scientology.

8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those practices affect your life?

Get rid of a presumption of a divine right to rule of law. Know that fundamental democratic principles is to agree to disagree and agree where agreement exists. To tolerate disagreement & opposition. I got fed up with how Scientologists get very suspicious if one has a mind of his or her own & how one can also reasearch the mind & spirit without requiring to be a little immitation of Hubbard to always be accepted. I hate always being agreeable to what Scientology demands.

9. If the items you listed in the previous question were changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of Scientology? If so, why?

The basics are good like the TR's CCH's Auditing but the so called OT levels that I have never done are over the top( OTT )
according to what I have read. I believe all the nonsense about Xenu is really the over imaginative mind of Hubbard having suffered xenophobia. I have also suffered xenophobia & is a paranoiac distrust of foreigners or aliens from other planets in the extreme. Xenophobia would include the 3rd & 4th dynamics.

10. Any additional comments you would like to make?

Yes the more persons who can contribute to a purpose in a democratic way is best compared to one person needing to plkay God requiring a totalatarian system kept working as a grand illusion underlined by paranpoiac fears. I kind of found truth in Jesus that is compassionate compared to the arrogance and hypocracy of Hubbard.