Sunday, 19th August, 2007 07:29:42am
Name or Alias:
Blue Sky Owner
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Time involved in the Church of Scientology:
Recommended Website - http://www.cs.cmu.edu/~dst/OTIII/minton-essay.txt
- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- Personality Test
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- It seemed to have the answers to the psyco-spiritual problems that I was wrestling with at the time
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- Health (mental and physical), marriage, existential questions
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- People dealing with the creation of health (mental and physical), who smoked(a lot!), ate a terrible diet of junk food (convinced that the 'meat body' was of no value)and seemed to live like vagrants, wearing 'charity shop' clothes ( I have nothing at all against this...it was just that the juxtaposition between the accumulation of money by the Church, and the poor quality of life of the staff, was very apparent).
I never saw any examples of OT abilities amongst the OT's (up to level VIII) ...in fact, some of them had vile tempers, especially with the subordinate staff. But I assumed they didn't use their 'abilities' (!) in front of the pre-clears. (I was always making excuses to explain some apparent inconsistancy between what I was witnessing and what I thought should be happening).
LRH's books were, at times, grammatically and conceptually impossible to fathom...all my fault, I felt, because I had 'misunderstoods'...even when I had cleared the misunderstoods, his writing was still non-sensical....however, I convinced myself that it was my fault, and I had to work harder to understand..it made me very miserable.....I am well educated and can easily get my head around quantum theory (not the math, but the philosophy), so not understanding LRH's utterances really disturbed me. ....But I was actually feeling, but wouldn't admit at the time, that his writings were actually meaningless mixtures of psuedoscience, designed to look like they meant something scientific or philosophical.... actually, by careful analysis, that is, deconstructing the concept and analysising it systematically, I found most of his writing to have no actual meaning...it was only what oneself projected into his concepts that gave them meaning..very clever!!..again, one was to blame if one couldn't figure it out!!
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- I had paid out a very large sum of money to have auditing, with, I felt, little chance of getting it back (without a great deal of trouble from the Church). I had also spent a vast amount of my time co-auditing and having auditing. I couldn't admit to myself I had made a mistake and spent that money and time on nothing...my pride wouldn't let me...I also felt that, if I just kept going, it would all work out in the end (I hoped)...also, the staff were constantly encouraging me on, and I just felt that I couldn't let them down...they were always so nice to me!
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- Public. No, I never 'helped out', although I was often under extreme pressure to do so...but that was not why I entered Scientology...I entered to be 'Clear'....I was not, in my mind, a Scientologist...I had a more selfish reason (to be Clear), and I had paid a lot for the privilege..so I was constantly 'not available'...I have no doubt that 'Ethics' would have turned it's beady eye to me eventually!!
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- Constant demand for 'more money'...I had paid for auditing up to clear, I was a life member (we're talking thousands of dollars here!) and still the demands came....extra auditing to 'sort out' problems, more donations, more donations!!, demands to pay again for another life membership...and then finally realising that the auditing that I was receiving was actually making me very miserable ....I was supposed to be improving!! I finally realised why I was so miserable...I am an outdoors type of person and I really hated being inside, day after day, being audited, with the sun shining outside and the real world going on....I suddenly realised that I had had spiritual freedom before I entered Scientology and now I had Spiritual (and, really, physical) bondage, to a system I no longer believed in. I walked out that day and never went back! Since then I have discovered that the answers were in me all along, not in an '....ology'!
The joy from leaving the Church was life-changing...all I can say is, thank goodness I left when I did...getting deeper into S. might have made it even harder!
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- I don't have an answer for this...I just think that S. is a package, therefore it will never change,(specifically, LRH warns against change continually, and it would be like moving a galaxy to try to change S., to use Ron-speak!).... if you get deeply into it, you will become a Scientologist and your life will be changed..you can't help it, the system has evolved that way.....but you might like it...I certainly didn't.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- Supra vida.......but I would NEVER go back into Scientology...I want to lead a full life, not one consumed by Ron-speak and Scientologese...ie, becoming a scientology clone....it gives me the shivers, thinking about it!
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
- Everybody needs to read the literature about Scientology on the internet, especially ...http://www.cs.cmu.edu/~dst/OTIII/minton-essay.txt
Armed with this information, anyone can enter a Scientology Church and see straight through the whole set-up!! Also, it saves you the many, many thousands of dollars that you'd have to spend finding out what the Wall of Fire is all about on the OT levels, ...you would realise just how absurb it is, without bankrupting yourself!! It's just (bad) Sci-Fi!!!