Saturday, 18th August, 2007 10:32:05am
Name or Alias:
Training and/or processing level:
Org or location:
Time involved in the Church of Scientology:
Age 1 to Age 21
Recommended Website - http://
- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- I was born into Scientology
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- Nothing. I thought there was nothing else. I was never asked what I wanted to do with my life. I joined the Sea Org because it was the thing to do if you were in the Cadet Org. My mom was in the Sea Org, and I really didn't know I had a choice.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- Well I sort of liked there communication courses. I was a little bit shy when I met new people, so I thought the communication courses helped me some in that area.
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- Yes, too many to write out right now, but I was only studying school work one day a week once I joined the S.O. I joined when I was 13. I never completed High School while I was on staff as an S.O. member. Once I married at age 17, it was implied that I no longer had to go to school, because now I was a legal adult. I didn't mind because I hated school anyways. It was condoned that I work more, and do school work less.
My mom died of cancer when I was 16. She was still in the S.O. at the time. My dad was declared(meaning kicked out) when I was 15. I was told I could no longer communicate with him at all, no letters, no phone calls, nothing. So my brother and I were assigned a guardian within the Church. It was a couple in the S.O. that we both knew well and liked. But after I was married it is easy to see why I didn't go to school anymore, I had no parents anymore.
I also remember my husbad wanted out, but he couldn't tell me, you could only talk to a certain person in the Org if you wanted to leave. You could not tell your spouse, child, or parents if you wanted to go. So he left, and I was not told until he was already gone. I had a mental breakdown at that point, and got very depressed. I truly loved him, but was told now that he went was no longer in the S.O., I could not be married to him and still be in the Sea Org. I was convinced to get a divorce, although I still loved him. I was made to think that the Organazations purpose was more important than my own disires. So I divorced, and eventually wanted to leave, because without my husband I felt soo empty. It was a two year proccess, of wanting to leave, not feeling like I could tell them I wanted to go, telling them I wanted to go, being segregated from the rest of the group, being interogated as to my plans when I left, if I was going to try to contact my dad, being stuck in a room to study materials on wanting to leave, and how that means you are not really apart of the ellite if you can't make it in the S.O. I finally left when I was 21, and was sent out to a Scientology school in New Mexico to work. Once I left I was still terrified of talking to my dad. I didn't start talking to him until about 2 years ago.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- I had friends in it, my mom was in it until I was 16, my dad was in it until I was 15, my brother was in it, I grew up around it and thought it was the only salvation the world had to make it and not perish. I was taught taht from an early age.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- Being made to divorce my husband, and not see him anymore. Not being told he was leaving until the night he left. Never being able to discuss with him how I really felt, and finding out how he felt towards the end of the relationship.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- To not disconnect family members. I was forced to not speak to my dad when I was 15, now I'm 26, and just started talking to him 2 years ago. I still have a hard time excepting him as a father because all the years that were lost in between.
If someone has a spouse within Scientology or the Sea Org, they should be asked if they want to go or stay with the member, not just seperated over night, and no communication allowed.
If Scientology is truly a religion, they should not have controll over families. They should offer their techniques, and that is it, not interfere with relationships.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- No. Their Organization is run to strictly, they offer very little freedoms, and feel they are the only salvation for mankind, so act very irrational allot of the time. They have an all or nothing frame of mind, and it is not fair to anyone.
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
- Fight For what's Right!!!!