Scientology - Through the Door

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Thursday, 28th June, 2007 06:37:27am

Name or Alias: Davina
Training and/or processing level: New OT5 NED Auditor
Org or location: UK
Time involved in the Church of Scientology: 22 years
Recommended Website - http://
1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of Scientology?
A friend was getting happier/better. I knew it was because of Scn but he wouldn't tell me about it so eventually I had a look for myself.

2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
'Do not compromise your own reality' made a big impression.
Also the Bridge i.e. the 'fact' that there were laid down steps to spiritual enlightenment


3. Were there problems in your life that you thought scientology would address?
No. I was fine.
I was actively looking for a spiritual path.
I'd tried various things. Scn indicated.


4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
An ED once said to me, 'You must buy the FPRD by 2 pm or I will write up a declare on you/r husband'
I hated the pressure and resulting abreactions to stats pushes. (eg the above and other examples of heavy regging, staff being pushed too hard etc.)

Some good Scn friends and I used to compare notes. For years we bought the idea of 'Just some renegade people not applying the tech' - we were in an outer Org at the time.
Letters to Justice Chief/KRs to senior Org about the outpoints in the outer Org never got answered/acked or acted upon as far as I know.
Staff were always financially poor. At the time that did not seem so big a deal but I always had an income of my own outside the church so I wasn;t affected by it so much.
I didn't like it when I realised that Standing Order Number 1 was a joke and that 'all letters written to me will be received by me' was a lie.


5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of Scientology?
I did very well in Scn.
I consider that I got gains from all the processing and training. I say it made my life better to quite a degree. My marriage has lasted nearly 30 years now. Without Scn I don't think that would have happened.
I was on staff for two and a half years and then public at AOSH. Looking back now, I think I was lucky. The people I met either through working with them on staff in the outer Org or meeting at AOSH were good people. I get the impression there was more craziness going on than I knew about but, perhaps because I was public at AOSH, this didn't affect me much.
I genuinely believed that Scn was the only route to spiritual enlightenment and that without it I would be spiritually lost.
I recall that there was always - for me - an underlying anxiety about being sure to say the right thing to avoid (unfair) ethics so I knew that was around. Looking back I recall that I felt like I had to be careful, eg I never told regs to 'P*ss Off' when they were annoying.
But to be fair I used to like going to ethics. If the correct condition was applied I found it worked fine.
Today I wonder if I am looking at all this through rose coloured spectacles??? I don't think so. I think I just got the best of it.


6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
I was on staff part time for 2 1/2 years at an Org in the UK.

7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a "final straw"?
It sounds trivial but an invoice on my account had been lost by the church which meant that I would lose a few hundred pounds to my account. I wrote to everyone I could to get this rectified but no joy even though I had loads of witnesses etc. Eventually someone whom I had known for years and had respected on NOTs staff said words to the effect of,
'We will credit this money to your account if you come into the org for XXXX service'.
This got to me. How could an ethical/spiritual organisation cheat in this way?
Writing this down seems trivial but in fact it seemed to violate the whole edifice of what is ethically correct and what isn't.
Looking back - again - I think I had been worn down by regging phone calls etc. too.
Anyway I read stuff on the internet, various books and that was it. There was too much time/form/place/event for me to dismiss what I read as untrue.
I couldn't stay in the organisation any more.


8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those practices affect your life?
Some time after leaving the church a family member had a breakdown (not related to Scn at all) and I was in a bit of a state. I went to my GP and he arranged for some counselling. I didn't have high expectations but I thought if someone could listen then I could just ITSA.
The counsellor was a very nice lady but I could only stand about 10 mins. It was like being offered a bike when I had been used to a rolls royce. She didn't have a clue of even the basics!
So, for me, the conselling in the church was very good (when done properly) and if that could get into society it would help so many people.
To achieve this? Well the usual list - basically summed up by 'Stop the bullying/criminal acts and start being ethical kind at all costs.'


9. If the items you listed in the previous question were changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of Scientology? If so, why?
No, and having said no I am not sure why.
I think there is a sense of my being pushed into a belief system without realising it and I would be worried about that happening again.
Mmm I'd have to think about this one some more!


10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
Really like this website.
Although I think some of the testimonies are from nutters so many of them have the feel of truth about them. There are more people like me out there!


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