Scientology - Through the Door

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Monday, 4th December, 2006 03:05:45pm

Name or Alias: Celeste
Training and/or processing level: Pro Sup, Pro WCer, ARC SW
Org or location: Eastern United States
Time involved in the Church of Scientology: Seven years
Recommended Website - Xenu.net
1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of Scientology?
A co-worker referred me.

2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
The idea that there was no dogma, nothing you had to have faith in--that it was a scientific approach to the spirit and you could improve yourself spiritually. Little did I know that was all completely false.

3. Were there problems in your life that you thought scientology would address?
My marriage problems (I got divorced shortly after joining), my poor self-esteem (I allowed myself to be worked like a slave for next to nothing while I was there), my lack of direction in life (the seven year gap in my resumé wasn't very helpful in finding employment after I left).

4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
I was a course supervisor and so I was exposed to conflicting data in the 'tech' every day. I just had to brush it off as 'my own misunderstoods' or come up with some wild explanation of why there was no conflict in the tech, even when it was blatantly obvious that it didn't make sense. I had to tell the student who had come across the inconsistency to 'clear their MUs' even though I saw the same problem with the data.

I also trained at Flag in Clearwater and I was treated like less than a human being while I was there. I saw so many inconsistencies there, in a place that was supposed to be the top-notch, best training available. It was crazy. I don't think there is room for me to go into all of it here.


5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of Scientology?
I kept telling myself that I was helping people and being helped and that it was for the greatest good that I work as hard as I could (like a slave) and be responsible (get treated like dirt). I would also tell myself that it would get better and that it was getting better. Finally I stopped kidding myself. I did have a few great friends there and that was another reason it was hard to leave, I knew that my friendships would suffer for it.

6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
I was on staff in a class V org.

7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a "final straw"?
The final straw was my own unhappiness. I found myself dreading going to the org every day and crying at least once a day. Most of the time I felt like I was going crazy. One day I just couldn't take it any more and I just left the course room (which is a huge no-no for a course supervisor) and the org. At first I was convinced that I was just being 'casey' or I was 'PTS to the middle class' or I was a degraded being or something like that. Even right after I left I still had the idea that I was just out-ethics. Getting on the internet and finding out the truth has helped me get over that a lot.

8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those practices affect your life?
I think there are so many things that are being done wrong in that organization that it is past the point of being able to salvage anything good by getting rid of the bad. The management is probably the thing that affected me the worst. But I think at this time the church as an organization is pretty much rotten to the core.

9. If the items you listed in the previous question were changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of Scientology? If so, why?
Never.

10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
If anyone is reading this who is considering getting into Scientology or getting out of Scientology, I just want to say please get the REAL truth, do your research and find out what a scam the church is. The church tells you lots of things that are false, things that are easily verified as being false. Take the time to really look into it. I'm so much happier now that I've left. And so are hundreds if not thousands of others.

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