Saturday, 6th April, 2002 02:02:08pm
Name or Alias:
Training and/or processing level:
Org or location:
New Era int, FSSO 'Freewinds'.
Time involved in the Church of Scientology:
aprox 12 yrs
Recommended Website - Dutch BodyThetan Organization
- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
A scientologist by the name of Mike Ferris approached me in Queenstreet, Auckland, New Zealand around 1984 to do a personality test. The next day he took me in session 'Book1' (therapy)
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
Nothing, I was mostly talked into it and too naive to resist. I thought they were a weird, odd bunch of people hanging around a smelly run down building called 'org'. Mike seemed like a harmless, friendly sort of a geek and the 'Book1' session did get a reaction (blowing off charge) in a rather unexpected and memorable way, something for which I was thankfull at the time.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
Mainly a shyness problem and a general lack of direction in my life which had me worried during a part of my teenage years.
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
Apart from a sense of utter 'pretend' by everyone involved as to how 'happy' they were with their miserable abusive scientology lives (it became obvious that the concepts 'think for yourself' and 'freedom' so widely advertised in the cult were actually completely non existent in the mindcontrolled invironment which is characteristic of cult life) the more serious matters such as people having fullblown mental breakdowns in the cult, also the living conditions and human rights abuses of the 'gulag' style labour camps used for 're-education' purposes in the cult called RPF.
I set aside my feelings because I was taught in the cult that it was all just 'bank', meaning negative emotions generated by 're-living' painfull situations experienced earlier in life or in 'past-lives' that you are confusing with a present time event, causing you to react to it inappropriately.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
Due to a combination of fear, indoctrination and exhaustion caused by a brainwashed state about which I was unaware at the time untill quite some time after exiting the cult. Full recovey took me at least a decade to realize.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
First public then staff, later sea org. In sea-org I was with New Era (Publishing house of the cult in Denmark) and Freewinds (Advanced org on a ship owned by the cult).
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
Working practically 24 7 in their sea org and being made to do my co-auding (therapy sesions) in the 'practical area' of the course room (a room full of students making lots of noise and being able to listen in on my private thoughts and info voiced during session).
Then having to stop in the middle of it, by 'direct order from David Miscavidge' to do a huge mandatory course the size of an encyclopedia called 'the key to life'.
The auditing had been more then awfull, then the endless course which was about clearing words like 'it' and 'at' ad nausea, that was even worse.
It was then that I realized that my real 'Key to life' depended largely on how fast I could split this crazy scene forever..As it turned out it was the wisest decision I ever made.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
Quarantine and disarm the authoritarian criminals that are currently running the CofS and then reinstate the pre '1982 takeover' management (David Mayo). The inevitable healing process throughout the organisation following that should take care of the rest..
I am an ex-member of 12 years and I am confronted daily with the repercussions of my cult involvement.
I am now 38 years old and have just got around to going for my drivers licence (duh!) I did have one before I got involved with scientology, during my time in the sea-org it expired and i was too 'out-of-it' to get it renewed etc. In my country a major big fuss is made about the drivers licence and it is waaaay expensive to even be able to get one. This is majorly cutting across pursuing other matters etc because of me having trashed my own self interest for a long period during my cult period earlier in life.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
Possibly, perhaps to make sure the above mentioned points are being corrected satisfactorily..
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
'All that is required for evil to prevail is for Good Men to Do Nothing' - Edmund Burke