Monday, 5th December, 2005 09:27:08am
Name or Alias:
Training and/or processing level:
Org or location:
Dallas, Austin, L.A.
Time involved in the Church of Scientology:
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- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- Handed a pink oca test while waiting in line at a movie.
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- At the very first the OCA which the staff member promised would locate my bad patterns or something to that effect.I took the communication course which I really enjoyed. Public are usually treated very well at the begining so I was basically charmed into joining staff. I was pretty sick of my life anyway, it seemed as good as anything or better and more meaningful than what I was doing.Having been at the celebrity centre in Hollywood, I see they treat their celebs like absolute royalty. No wonder Cruise loves it.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- Just lost in general. Was considering college but they didn't appear to be teaching what I was looking to find. Oh, how I wish I'd spent that eight years and $100,000 on a decent education. I learned a lot in SCN. but none of it really translates into the real world. As a matter of fact having been a member is more of a liability than an asset.Even though I admire and respect some of the scn 'tech.' I'd be appalled if one of my daughters ever became involved with them.One of the first things they had me do was 'disconnect' from my entire family as they were found to all be supressive. Yah right.
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- I experienced lots of injustice while on staff at the Dallas mission. Looking back I suppose I was brainwashed for a while and going along with the herd mentality. Also the mission holder Dean had everyone convinced that since he had done the 'upper levels' and been to Flag (Fla.) he knew the inside scoop on what was really going on in SCN. and the universe in general. I was 19 maybe old enough to know better but not quite. Also, the heavy ethics handling usually got black sheep back in line. Being locked in small rooms to write up misdeeds for days on end and not being allowed to talk to anyone and no one allowed to talk to you while you are in these 'lower ethics conditions.' Typical brainwashing techniques. Also Dean was keen to humiliate questioning staff in front of the rest of the group. You could get this kind of abuse just by looking at him the wrong way. He was extremely paranoid.Had his own private refridgerator while the rest of the staff ate rice and beans. In summer we'd sleep on the roof because the old three story building where we were housed was unfit to be occupied in the summer months. Also when Dean was writing his book we were required to work with NO sleep at all for days on end. Dean got a great deal of protection and sympathy by implying someone was trying to kill him and we were meant to protect him at all costs. I caught him stealing money from the bookstore fund so I was thrown out, literally my things thrown out onto the sidewalk one morning. I eventually led a part in him being investigate by Flag and I rejoined the church in Austin, thinking perhaps Dean was just one bad apple. Wrong again. The corruption goes all the way to the top which I eventually found out for sure in my L.A. experience with the church.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- I wanted to make it 'up the bridge'..the promise of auditing which neevr happend while on staff kept me hanging on for a while. Also the notion of 'saving the planet', seemed like a worthwhile enough cause.I was truly convinced the technology on it's face had merit. At some point the old 'we build a world with broken straws' argument just didn't hold up any more and I saw the church for what it is. Too rich and too controlling and I question the motives of those in charge now, especially since Hubbard died. There was a huge power struggle which seems to have gone the wrong way entirely.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- Staff at the Dallas mission on a five year contract. Helped out in Austin later on but never signed a contract with them. If you'd taken LSD in the past you were disqualified to become Sea-Org. Lucky me.
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- Yes, it was around 1985 and the church was becomming decidedly fascist. I drew the line at how many of my friends who had left the church that I was no longer allowed to speak to. Also the paranoia within the church and suspicion of their own members in good standing. It was a little like the Bush gov. Everyone watching everyone and no trust left at all.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- Well, they managed to get all my money over a period of several years. The practises they should change? Too numerous to list really.I think they should give refunds to those who realize they were duped, however instead they spend $10 million a day on attorneys. Or at least that's what I heard from within the church. It's almost impossible to win a suit with them.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- Moot question, these things are not going to change within the ranks. No way.
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
- Many of the people I met in Scientology were wonderful. I think they truly had pure intentions and wanted to be of service to humanity. After I left of course none of them was allowed to talk to me. Eight years of closely established friendships just gone. It was sad. I don't blame the people who make up the staff of missions and orgs. most of them are just seekers that have been sadly mis-led. I miss them all.