Monday, 31st October, 2005 01:48:30pm
Name or Alias:
Training and/or processing level:
Org or location:
Hollywood Sea Org
Time involved in the Church of Scientology:
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- 1. How did you first become acquainted with the Church of
- Took the personality test while working in Los Angeles for another non-Scientology related company; then, took communications course after moving nearer to employer.
- 2. What initially appealed to you about scientology?
- The truth or basic observable truths about communication and basic mind function.
- 3. Were there problems in your life that you thought
scientology would address?
- Not particularly. I was looking for something to improve myself (self help was popular during that time - I had finished reading 'I'm O.K. You're O.K.') and was disillusioned with Psychology's apparent answers to everything but their lack of ability to really help people.
- 4. Did you see, experience, or hear about things that didn't
seem right while you were in the Church of Scientology? What were
they, and what convinced you to set aside your feelings?
- The lack of ability to move forward in the organization without the expenditure of large sums of money bothered me; but, I wanted what was being offered and was encouraged to quit my well paying job to volunteer for the sea org. I felt the 'million' or was it 'billion' year contract was a little out of line; but, figured if they thought they could enforce it; then, what I believed didn't really matter much. After joining sea org; I felt that the hours and living conditions were beyond normal and above what should be expected. I received very little training and little or no pay. At first, just enough to pay for a room. I remember eating PB&J for a solid month. Raisins were supplimented to bring blood iron content up so I could donate blood and plasma to suppliment income. The living conditions were rough.
- 5. Why did you choose to stay in the Church of
- I was a logical thinker and felt and understood the validity of the philosophy and teachings. The threat of ostrasization was enough to keep me enduring the living conditions; the continual promise of sessions (which never appeared) also encouraged me to endure the conditions. I also developed close relationships with some of the people I lived and worked with.
- 6. Were you staff or public? If staff, was it at a mission or
an org? Were you ever in the Sea Org or OSA? Which unit? If not on
staff, did you ever volunteer to 'help out'?
- I was staff; at first at a mission until my money ran out; and my job wouldn't support my involvement; then I joined the Sea Org.
- 7. Why did you leave the Church of Scientology? Was there a
- I don't really remember all the details of why I left. Partly, I felt I wasn't getting everything promised to me; part, I'm strong willed enough to resent the pressures, social, political, and intellectual to stay. I had developed a relationship with a girl who's mother and her were clients staying in the Scientology Hollywood Hotel (I don't remember the name -- I remember her name though ;-)) We were discouraged from fraternizing and I was getting disciplined for my relationship with her.
- 8. Do you think the Church of Scientology needs to change some
of its practices? If so, what should be changed? How did those
practices affect your life?
- I'm not sure if those practices are still being followed or not; the church is very dynamic. I'm not sure of my status with the church. I believe I'm probably not in good standing. That practice should be re-examined. I retain a great loyalty and belief in most everything learned while there. But, like science and all knowledge, people can use what they know for good or evil. Not everyone in Scientology is good. Some choose to abuse their knowledge. However, in spite of the practice of ostrasizing non complient members; I've promoted Dianetics and to a lesser extent Scientology for most of my life. I've heard many of the stories - Clambake - for one and have chosen not to read or interpret the information out of context. And so, the effect of the practices has caused me to feel alienated from the organization and feel I have no recourse to rejoin.
- 9. If the items you listed in the previous question were
changed, would you consider rejoining or staying in the Church of
Scientology? If so, why?
- I've never considered myself to 'not' be a member of Scientology. Just one not in good standing. So as far as joining goes... have they dismissed the contract. :) I'm not sure how to answer that question. I would like to see compensation for my dedication at Sea Org and receive due compensation for what was promised; I would like also to see better living conditions. If the pricing structure changed; I would like to see how far I could go. I know that Scientology/Dianetics woke me up, as a person. My IQ was middle moderate at best and I received knowledge enough to become at or near, if not, genius level in my comprehension of any subject I choose to involve myself. The knowledge works; that's all I know.
- 10. Any additional comments you would like to make?
- I understand that there are some who having been in Scientology choose to express animosity and myriad forms of negativity. For the most part, their descriptions of life and times are fairly accurate. I believe that some, if not all, of them are victims. I feel for them. Unlike myself, they were left in a state which probably in many ways more than proves the tenets of Dianetics than disproves it; but, that can only be understood if one has been taught and understands them. I feel that Sceintology owes me, and probably many others, that which they were promised (training, sessions, auditing, pay) as compensation for their volunteer work. Many who have animosity probably need the sessions/auditing more than the pay - unfortunately they wouldn't understand or agree with that. Sceintology needs to change to reflect that which they will become. It too can be seen like a person getting treated. The public needs to let them grow. I know the organization wasn't perfect at formation. It probably isn't perfect even yet. I will consider that they have come of age when they can accept their duty to the planet; and to those they have wronged in their growth.