Wednesday, 27th February, 2008 11:10:26am

Name or Alias: Jana Moreillon
How long ago was your disconnection? 25 years

Are you a current member, an ex-member, or never a member?

ex-member

Did you disconnect, or did someone disconnect from you?

The other person disconnected.

1. What is (or was) your relationship to the disconnected person?

I am/was Mother to this woman

2. What were the circumstances surrounding the disconnection?

I resigned from COS on July 6th, 1983. It was not long after that I got a message on my daughter's message machine telling me to do my A-E, then drop her a card.

3. Were you given a choice about disconnecting? Was there anything you could have done to avoid the disconnection? If so, please describe the choice involved or what you could have done. Do you now feel that you made the best decision?

It never entered my mind that my daughter would disconnect from me. I could have not married ( still happily after 27 years). I could have not resigned from the 'church', but instead, agreed to the delivery of Thorazine in the Advanced Org's Guidance Center. I think I made the best decision. ( still happy after 26 years!).

4. Was a formal disconnection letter sent? If so, what did it say? If not, how was the disconnection communicated?

The disconnection was delivered on her telephone answering machine.

5. In what way has the disconnection affected your life?

Hilda is missing from my life. Since she is now a woman of 51 yrs of age, we have missed many years of love and laughter.

6. What were your feelings at the time about the disconnection?

I was stunned.

7. What are your current feelings about the disconnection?

I am at peace with it. She told me that her life is happier without me in it. I am willing to abide by her choice. I want her to be as happy as she can create joy, altho' it escapes my understanding how abandoning your entire family can contribute to a healthy 2nd Dynamic.

8. Has there been an attempt at reconnection? Were there any conditions for reconnecting? If there was an attempt, did you succeed at reconnecting?

I expected to see her at her Grandmother's funeral, and I thought that I would be able to hug her and talk to her some little bit, but she didn't attend. I called her when her Father died and received a cold and bitter 'no reach'.

9. If you are currently disconnected, would you like to reconnect? Do you believe it is possible, in your particular case? If not, why?

Of course I would like to. Apparently, I will have to do an A-E, grovel and beg to rejoin a group that I see as dangerous to all of mankind if I am to win her approval. That's not going to happen. The ball is in her court, so to speak.

Would you like to make any additional comments?

I am over the 'blame, shame, and regret' of it. I got her into the subject. She was brought up on touch assists and Objective-type processes, done as game playing. I bought her Grades when she was 12 or 13. I sent her to an Org to do HSDC training when she was 15. She says that she went clear on a process LRH ran on me when I was pregnant with her. I audited her a bit when I was auditing in the Orgs. I treated her as I believed a big person in a little body should be treated. She told me that 'no thetan was ever anyone's Mother'. It (disconnection) lies there like a malign growth, and I take full responsibility for the action of my daughter.